Today I started to post the poems I wrote during a very dark period in my life. I was lost, I felt my life had no purpose or meaning and believed that the only solution to it all was to write what I was feeling. I had many things happen in the three years before writing these (which I won’t go in to) but by the time I started writing I felt my whole belief system had shattered and that I no longer felt I had any control over my destiny.
All the poems have the original dates so the postings will be in this blog dated from 1993 and 1994. They also are direct transcripts from the pages that I wrote them on so the words have not been changed.
During that time in my life I experienced some of the most terrible emotional moments ever, or at least that’s how I felt. I wrote a lot about being in love as well as being in pain and only now do I realise that the love I felt was more of me “wanting” not actually “being in” love.
In December 1994 my life turned around when I met my now gorgeous wife. It was then that I understood what it was really like to love and be loved again.
Given where I am today and just how happy I am, I can only think that it all happened for a reason.
I do not believe these are very good poems, I just wanted to share this period of my life with anyone interested.